One Step Back

"Death we can face: but knowing, as some

of us do, what is human life, wich of us is it

that without shuddering could (if consciously

we were summoned) face the hour of birth?"

(Thomas De Quincey)

I think I know

what human life is:

the certainty of death,

all the suffering,

the longing, moaning and yearning

between desperate grasps for breath.

But no, I don't think

I could now face death

and leave this life for good

and it is not about mood

because I felt despair

all over me

and I was still afraid.

Would I shudder

if I was to face

all the sadness, the helplessness and the grace

of my own birth?

Yeah, I think I would,

and I would tremble too,

with anguish and agony,

knowing someday I would perish, vanish

in loneliness.

But unfortunately for me

I would still choose life

and all the pain

and all the sorrow.

At least so I could for once fell the rain

and hope that all would change

when the day would turn in-to-morrow.